tired

love yourself first.

frankly, i do.
but sometime people around me make me feel uncomfortable about my very own self.

:(

i know.
sometime i tend to throw everything away.
but i am not that strong.

because i might have found the one who love me the most next to my parents and for that i live my life to the fullest, hoping in the future my life will be better than today. hoping that in the future, u will be next with me my darling. we both will live our life together side by side through good times or bad. with no one can stop us, and with the bless from God. darling we will be alright

they say everything is beautiful when you fall in love.

but it will turn horrible eventually because its not easy for someone to find a happy ending.

do i found mine?

perhaps.

but with whom?

thats the question i'm asking myself.

world is bitter.

world can be sweet as caramel.

but to be a woman, or man, 

this is what you have to face eventually.

you can't escape it.

because there is no exit doors when it came to be an adult.

you must face it.

and walk away with pride.

and not shame.

world is bitter.

world is sweet.

memories are the same thing as the world are.

we just need to keep our hope high. 

FINISH.

im wild but with morality.

watching the sunrise really made me captivate by the nature again.

i love watching the sunrise and sunset. it is the most beautiful thing of the world. to me it is one of the most seven wonders ever.

i have 2 more papers to go.
minus today, means ONE MORE!

then bye bye kuala lumpur, hello kota kinabalu.

i miss sabah so much.

sometime people dont really understand me, or is it me is the one who is hard?

im cold and i might fall sick.

i miss my parents.

4 days to go.

i need a new hairstyle.

was thinking to do like this. 

or this. 

things that i need to do during semester break.

here is the list.

1. exercise. i need that. =.=
2. work. extra income. :P
3. learn how to play guitar.
4. help my mom. become her driver.

and other things. but im still thinking about it.

merindukan mu - D'masiv (favorite!)

[Intro]

Saat aku tertawa di atas semua
Saat aku menangisi kesedihanku

Aku ingin engkau selalu ada
Aku ingin engkau aku kenang

Selama aku masih bisa bernafas
Masih sanggup berjalan
Ku kan slalu memujamu
Meski ku tak tau lagi
Engkau ada di mana
Dengarkan aku ku merindukanmu

Saat aku mencoba merubah sgalanya
Saat aku meratapi kekalahanku

[Interlude]

Dengarkan aku ku merindukanmu

the wind whispered.

the cloud is getting darker.

the wind is getting stronger.

the thunder is arriving soon.

the raindrops will shower all of us.

by then we will end up with wet clothes, wet hair.

cause we ain't got any umbrella.

love the way you lie.

im hungry.
and i cant think straight.

business communication. 
critical thinking.
fundamental of information technology.
english language proficiency.
academic expository writing.

3 more.

Upside down world.

well hello teeth. 

block.

i cant think of anything. fck.

khatimah cinta (currently fav)

Bintang Malam nyanyikan lagu
Rindu hatiku yang terpendam
Bintang malam lukis wajahku
Katakan aku pergi

Genggamlah cinta yang ku berikan
Simpanlah selalu dalam hati
Ku akan selalu dalam mimpimu
Menemani tidurmu

Sudahlah sudah
Ku harus pergi
Jangan kau tangisi aku lagi
Biarku bawa seluruh cintamu
Ku dakap dalam tidur panjangku

Peluk tubuhku
Kucup bibirku
Relakan saja aku pergi...

Quote 1.

"Do you love your creator? Love your fellow-being first."

- Nabi Muhammad S.A.W

na na na.

currently listening to:

rihanna feat drake - what's my name.

how i wonder, do u know who i really am.

with what knowledge (?)

even me, myself, have no clue who i really am.

who i am in the past, present, and who i will be in the future.

thou i do have my goals, yet im still obfuscate. 

i let time to tell me who i really am.

but, is there any end to it?

i am just a human being where i have my limitation.

i am just a human being where i can give up.

but if time really want to teach me.

then all i have to do is wait.

my mind is block with colorful lights around me.

for love, i wish you were here.

make me warm with your love.

make me laugh with your jokes.

how i miss all the memories.

for love, i will do everything for you.

because you make me stronger than ever.

because you saw the best thing in me.

how i wish you know.

love

please

be 

thoughtful

of 

me.

sitting. staring at the window. covered with rain drops.

meow.

my personal fav. orangey kitty. 

here, i will like to state that i am in love with this creature. 

these are all stray cats. 

my workstation.

my office.

sunrise. :)

place where i stayed.

shower of sunlight on me.

i need to get tanned.
i know tis weird for any malaysian to want to get tanned. because well some of the malaysians were born with good looking tanned.

i am more to yellow-ish skin.
simpsons perhaps (?)

im. hungry. 

little space of mine.

hello kitty bed sheet.

mostly pink. 

;)

because im half malay, and half chinese.

batik, or i called it sarong is a proper chill dress to be worn at home. but yet, it came to shock for those who saw me wore sarong especially those who never know.

and yes, now they know.

i worn this ever since i was in my middle school and it is something that i found very relaxing and comfortable to wear. 

it can be sexy.

but i dont think it is.

woman of malaya worn this ages back. its just like woman wear t-shirt and jeans today.

this is me. and i will never change.

i was born with a name that no one can ever forget. my name can be most common thing ever, but behind that name, it had it own unique persona. Because she can light up an empty room with her charisma. 

two most lovable person in my life had brought me to be a better person although i never will say i am a good person. 

i did my sins, and i never being denial about it. 

i am not a saint, nor i am a devil. 

i am just human being where i have two most beautiful people as my parents, and 3 younger siblings that are full with love. 

two face persona is the tragical thing that could happen to any person.

and

i am not.

i try my very best to buried my negativity persona into the ground where i would not find it myself, where i able to live a normal life, where i will gained my positiveness in fulfilling my desire to be who i really am.

positive to me will lead me to a better person. 

where i will feel better of myself.

and never for anyone else.

i am young, and i am hunger for knowledge. 

teach me how to grow into a big tall tree where no one can rip it off, where no one can kill it, except for human that is full of lust. 

my image always end up as one of the judging game for all human. 

where in this game, human tend to jump into a conclusion about what type of people are you.

where in this game, the victims end up being hurt, because some people are too foolish to realized that they are also being judge except not from human.